Since deciding to have a natural birth this time around, my first instinct was fear! I was so afraid of the pain and discomfort it would bring and just did not know that I could suffer through it that long! One day as I was thinking about it it was like God told me "if you can trust me to give you as many kids as I want you to have, why can't you trust me through your labors?!" And it hit home with everything in my life. Trusting God to decide how many children to have is a HUGE deal! Most people I know that would be the one thing in their lives that they would want to control, it affects everything from house size, to car size, to income, budget, etc. But for me I feel that is the easiest thing in my life to trust God with...so why can't I trust him with the smaller things and stop all the worrying?!