Wednesday, February 26, 2014

Impatiently waiting for spring......

Things around here has been super busy the last month or so.  I had enrolled in two classes this semester before we found out I was expecting and so far it has been SUPER challenging to keep up with things!  I'm starting to come out of my first trimester but still have ZERO energy, and feel terrible most every day!

We are in pure survival mode right now!  We've reverted from eating healthy to eating whatever is easy, frozen pizza, hotdogs, cereal, sandwiches, as long as I don't have to stand up and cook it we will eat it right now.  I attempted to make some taco's last night and upon putting the meat in the pan I almost lost my cookies all over the stove!  I had to have Nathan finish up dinner!  I just couldn't take the smell!  It is not uncommon right now to order pizza 3x a week!  I feel terribly guilty because we ALL need to be eating healthier especially Nathan and I but I just can't swing it right now!  Hopefully we can start detoxing from all this junk within the next week!!  I am looking forward to nice homemade meals again!
I've signed the girls up again for online school,  We did this last year for part of the year while I was in my first trimester and had to go back to doing it again this year because I am just so tired!  Even Hobble-bobble gets to do school now online.  She is LOVING school!  She has been begging me all year long to do school, but I've put it off because it will be easier for me to start her when she is 5 next year, but she is thriving at it!!  She will sit and do school all day if I let her-- which I normally don't mind!

I've been impatiently waiting for the spring weather to hit!  We had a nice warm week last week, the girls played outside every day and now it is cold again.  I will be SO happy to have sunshine and work outside in our new garden this spring!!  I want warm weather so badly I can taste it!!

We also lost our beloved cat this month.  Elliott went out the door on Valentines day and hasn't returned.  In the past I've not been much of an animal person so 5 years ago it wouldn't have hit me very hard, however; Pumpkin loves her animals and watching her heart break over this has really killed me!  I've been posting photos everywhere of him, but we've not found him!  We are still hoping he will come back though!  I stopped by Petsmart the other day, and they had some cats for adoption!  I had picked one out and got to the cash register but when I called Pumpkin to see what she thought, she said she would rather wait and see if Elliott comes back.

We also lost our two bunnies last month so we went ahead and got two new baby bunnies.  They are adorable!!  SO tiny!  We are keeping them inside right now until we repair our bunny cage outside but I can't hardly get the kids to leave them alone!

I'm looking forward to getting my energy back SOON!  I have so much on my list to get done, painting the inside of the house, new shutters on the outside, taxes, appointments to make, garden to plan and I can't wait to get started!!    

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

It's my 7th baby- Get over it already.....

I had thought that since we had a scare with this baby that people would be a little more sensitive with their comments and "concerns" of our family size but boy was I wrong!  This is my seventh child and there has NEVER been a pregnancy out of all seven that people where genuinely happy for us.  YES even the first baby was made out to be a scandal even though it really wasn't!!  For years my feelings got hurt and I was so offended at people's words and accusations; for the first three months of each of my pregnancies I would be in mourning over the thoughtless, heartless comments people would make!  But not is my 7th baby-GET OVER IT ALREADY!

I've heard every question, every comment,every "concern" and "wise-crack" known to man about large families and to be honest it is just annoying!  Nothing anyone can say, or nothing anyone worries about "for me," whether it be my finances or my health, will change the fact that I have another child ALREADY growing inside me!  It will also not change the fact that my husband and I BOTH believe that God is not finished giving us children!  When it is time for us to "be done" we will both know it and it will be a decision that we will make together- we are not planning to ask anyone else their opinion on how many children we should have so please don't give it!

You are welcome to you opinions about us, and our family, how we choose to homeschool or how we choose to have many children, or why you THINK we have many children, or that we are Christians-you are also welcome to keep them to yourself because we are not interested in them, nor are we interested in hearing about them through other people.  The fact is- whether we have a lot of children, or ONE child there are advantages and disadvantages to both lifestyles!

I personally grew up with three older sisters.  I lived with two of them for the first 10 years of my life and then I was an only child for the next 9 years that I lived at home.  It wasn't till recently I actually had a real relationship with any of them!  I consider my first few years as part of a family of five the happiest of my childhood!  I have good memories of hugs, tickles, Singing Christmas Carols, playing barbies, having someone fix my hair, walk me to the bus stop...there was someone there with me at all times and someone I knew loved me at every corner!  I was never alone!  My memories for the second half of my life are not quite the same, I remember being desperate for friends, boyfriends, my dad traveling a lot, sitting in my room alone wishing I had more friends, crying a lot, being lonely, and struggling with every relationship I had in my life.  While yes maybe my parents could afford to give me great clothes, great toys, electronics- but none of those things could ever replace the happiness I had when I had my sisters around.  Even though I was an only child for those several years I still had to buy my own car, pay rent once I graduated, and pay for my own cellphone and insurance if I wanted it.  Things were not always handed to me I was taught to work for them!

My children will never know what loneliness is!  They will never know what it is like to have everything yet feel you have nothing!  They will always appreciate things because they will have to work for them, they will not have handouts but they will have a chance at a great life because we will teach them how to accomplish that!  They are smart, well behaved, and all of them have a unbelievable faith and love for Jesus Christ!  I personally as their mother couldn't ask for more!  I also know that when I am dead and gone, my children will not be lonely and will not mourn alone.  They will have many best friends in each other and will be able to look back on our life and see the many things that Christ has done for us because we were faithful to listen to his voice!!

If our family has learned anything this year it is that "God is in Control" and that "God will supply all of our needs."  God's control is not limited to just daily things in our life but he has control of every area of our lives- down to creating a child in the womb.  Our needs that he will supply does not stop at just getting to the gas station before we run out of gas, but every piece of bread, clothing, or dollar that comes into our home is there because HE gave it to us!  I do not believe that God will give us another child without giving us the financial means to supply our needs!

With this said, I'm expecting not to post this ever again because like I said- we are on baby 7...get over it already!  So in a few years if I end up posting that we are expecting unexpected blessing #10, just know that, that announcement isn't to get your approval but just to let you know why I'm gaining weight again! :)

Children are a blessing from God, we will be finished having children when we feel that God has put it on our hearts to not have anymore children.  Until then I hope most of you can sit back and enjoy watching what God is doing in our lives!