I saw this photo posted on facebook a few weeks ago and It was disturbing enough to me that I saved it for this blog post. See, 11 years ago, I knew all about wanting to be loved like a country song. When I was a teen I dreamed about it in my room, I danced to it in my car, and I walked down the aisle to it in what turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life when I was 19! I embraced, loved and dreamed about every aspect of it from, "strawberry wine", "Cowboy take me away", "She thinks my tractors sexy", to "unanswered prayers", "Breathe", and "man I feel like a woman!!" You see no matter what the song was about, weather it was a happy story, or a sad one- it was still mesmerizing and took me to a place that didn't matter the outcome because I was in a story about love!! I saw love through country song glasses, where it didn't matter if he cheated because at least I would have a heart wrenching song I could sing afterwards! But when it happened in reality I didn't feel like singing much! My view of love was tainted by fairy tales and songs. I thought that my life fit into one of these songs and as long as it did- Good or bad- I would be happy. I was wrong! Looking to love songs or fantasy to fulfill my self-worth left me empty and alone.
Here is another example. See, God IS LOVE! I thank God that these people aren't Him nor do they apparently know the real heart of God because God's word says, 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, " Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
I was reminded this week of an old song I heard several years ago asking the question, "If Jesus came to your church, would you let him in?" I can't for the life of me remember the name of the song but it went on to explain that Jesus would have filthy dirty feet, would they let him walk on the carpet? He would be smelly and dirty, he would not look like everyone else nor would he have his best Sunday suit on- so would they ask him to leave??
I've never been so outraged to hear a dying woman tell such stories!! This woman has since decided to go off her dialysis and stop fighting! Maybe if God's people would have shown her that God had a plan for her life still- even in the midst of her sickness- Maybe if God's people would have looked beyond the carpet, and cameras, and into the actual hearts of the people- she would have had a church family that loved and supported her and she wouldn't have felt the need to stop her treatments!!